monkeybutts

this will be my final entry to this god forsaken load of shit on the internet tht lets any1 on the planet kno how some1 feels about some1 else

im never going nere any1 agen , cause i hurt to many ppl , and yes i do make ppl sick , yes i do deserve nothing , and yes i do deserve to die for everything i have done in my life .wen i do return to skl so tht ecery 1 can see me fucking face , feel free to slap, punch or kick it in cause to tell u the truth i dont need it anymore .

claire i hope u enjoy your life and everything works out for u , but for the ppl tht i kno use ppl as much as wat happened last night i hope u burn in hell like i am , and u urselves kno who u r cause i do .

ppl can have their oppinions on wat happened , and can fucking do watever they want about it to me , but if i hear about any1 hassling claire , even though she wants nothing to do with me , i swear they will regret it cause it doesnt just affect her emotionaly but so i hear its physicaly aswell since she feels sick about the thought of it .

and yes amber im sorry alright , im sorry beyond words , u think i can show how fucking sorry i am , ur bloody mistaken , so think wat u want i dont give a shit , im just worried about 1 person and 1 person only and thts not u .....

goodbye jounral its been shit having u , goodbye and good fucking riddance

Current Mood: can i have a mood bout this

i have had the worst day today i just couldnt think.
everything went downhill and wen the practice came it was even worse
to tell u the truth i cant take being in a band anymore. i think i might have a break like jojo she has the right idea i just wanna go bak to normal and worry about important things not just the band.

ppl really piss me off sometimes

Current Mood: pissed off

people pls help me if u want a present i need your help soo badly i am really bad at this shopping for any1 else but me . i can never think of wat to buy.
sooo plsss tell me if i cant get it to u before christmas then i will try to get it to u a.s.a.p but until then
TELLLLLLLLLL MEEEEEEEEE WATTTTTTT UUUUUUU WANNNNNNNNNT!!!!!!!!!!!
but pls dont make it anything toooo expensive i aint rich ya know

p.s dont make it anything soooo girly tht i will look like a puff buying kk
cause i really dont wanna get funny looks again.

Current Mood: exhausted

sorry for tht last ebtry but i had to get my anger out with out making a racket some ppl just really piss me off so much though and i only just realised it , its 1 of my closest friends

why does this always happen
sumthing always has to piss me off seriously so tht i get fucking mad
wat the fuk is the point

OWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!! MY HEADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!
feels like i was playing a baseball game and got hit by one of the swinging bats. yikes never knew amps could do tht much damage to your BRAIN but oh well wat ya gonna do. missed skl because of my headache and i dont like missing skl anymore easpecially wen i miss art for more than 1 reason.
but yeh hope every1 enjoyed there time of peice without me lmao.
its christmas soon and i think i got every1 there presents , well i hope i have otherwise i am sorry and i will make it up as quick as possible.

so yeh many happy hopes and will speak to ya l8er
bai bai

Current Mood: uncomfortable

ooooooooooooo i love my new coat is sooo warm and snuggly even amber liked it i meen she didnt stop saying nice jacket but if tht was a joke i duno but oh well its sooo warm and snugly.
ahh skl was kl me and jojo r working on a song tht hopfully will be cool and AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i am singing again NOOOOOOOOO but oh well if they dont like my singing the they can get stuffed i kno i am a crap singer but oh well its the lyrics tht count , i think...........
oh well love ya all and will speak to ya wen i c ya

unlike my last entry this 1 will be on a good note since its my sis's b day and i am a bit pissed . today was great , i had a great time at the studios and i thourght every1 had fun 2.
met a guy called ben today and jesus was he good at the drums , very tall though but still amazing.And i was pretty proud of myself 2day aswell cause i think i am getting alot better on the drums now.
petch sang teenage kicks with dina as the bassist and me as the drummer. i envy joe its such a fun song to play.
theres still things going on in my life tht ruin these sort of events but all i can do is go on and try not to worry about it as much.
sometimes i just sit at the window and watch the world go by and it reminds me tht life will always go on no matter how bad things r.
at this moment in time the only thing stopping me from going mad is my friends , and without them i would be nothing.
so i dedicate this entry to all of my friends, i will love ya all forever and i will always be thankfull for u being there wen i need u the most.

tonnes of happy hopes and will see ya all l8er

Current Mood: grateful

jeese. why does life have to be soooo complicated, everything at 1 moment can make u feel great and shit from another.
ppl at this moment in time confuse me more than ever. i mean most of them are my good friends and they confuse me.id like to be able to sort out all of there problems and mine with the crack of my knuckles but i cant.
everytime i try and do something good for some1 it ends up hurting another person arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhh soooooo bloooody anoying.
i know tht i havent written on live journal in a long time and then i write this aint the best thing to do but at this moment of confusion for me , it seems like the only way to get it out.
itll be nice to have 1 great day for 1c and not have it ruined by the problems of a friend or my family. and it would also be nice to be with all of my friends at 1 time and have fun. i would love it wen we could all come together and get along no matter about past feelings for eachover.
i cant wait to see tht day , but until then i will carry on and try and make the best of wat i have. i love all the friends i have and wouldnt change a thing bout them but it would be nice for them to think the same for eachover.

i cant write anymore on this i am depressing myself so for now farewell.

Current Mood: confused
Current Music: nirvana

today was soooooooooooooooooo blooooooooooooddddddddyyyyyyyyyy bbbbbbbbboooooooooooooooorrrrrrring

i did nothing , even rok climing was bad.
wats up with the world today cant they come up with anyhting to thrill ppl god.
oh well i hear amber is getting better and i am sooooooo glad

god sorry to say this but i need to talk to some1 with intelegence no offence ppl.
oh well , today has been soooo boring tht i have nothing else to say.
god amber plsss come in 2mos thiis is unbareable

haya ppl i will get to the reason for my subject soon but now i will tell u about wat happened in my day .
today was like any other day cept most of it was spent telling fazana and laila about wat boys and wat they r really like in a relationship,i think her final words to me was i have learnt so mcuh in 1 day or sumting i cant really remeber but , AM I NUTS , I WAS TELLING THEM ABOUT WAT WE DO WELL WAT MOST OF US DO EXCLUDING me , dorian and some other boys who will remain nameless cause i cant be arsed to write their names.
Aly is the biggest prik the world has evr seen , he boasts , he lies , thinks he is the best at everything and omg has the most fuked up annoying voice in the world(pardon my french) but it is all tru, this shit about hes in a band then noooooooooooo wat the fuk r u talking about attitude is seriously pissing me off , i have got tht bad tht their are times where i wish he would strt on me just for the pleasure of beating the shit out of him.ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HE ANNOYS ME SOOOOOOOO MUCH -ok breath, breath- soz bout tht anyway yeh today was kl we found out tht mimi's old host fancied robert

EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!

well i guess him and mimi was right they go for the taller guys - sighs -

damn this shortness lol

anyway ambs is still ill hope she gets better soon i mean i got no1 to talk to in science, all james says is LIFE SUKS and to have karl sitting next to you sticking things up his nose aint the most pleasant of things to witness.
so yeh amber hope u get better soon.WELL DONE ALL OF U AGAIN FOR SPORTS DAY i know it was long ago but i still think u all did really well.

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaak i forgot i gotta design a egg parachute buger. Wats up with tht , dropping a perfactly good egg out of a window , wat a waste of meal -tut tut-

oh well gotta go do some hwk now


THANKS ;
AMBER, FLO, JESSY , ZOE , JAMES , TOM , DANNY V , ILLA , MIMI,
PERRY, fazana, laila for being kl m8s

ALY GO AWAY BOTHER SOME1 ELSE WITH YOUR ANTICS

did i spell tht right???did i use tht word right?????
bye.

well done every1 , u all did really well.
it was cool today even though i came forth in the shotput and last in the 1500 but still 15000 thts not bad for a fatty.
i have to say many thnx to all the ppl tht cheered me on weather they was calling me gummy bum or not still thnx.
i have to say a special well dont to amber and florence for doing all 3 events.
i know it was a short 1 today but i just cant think of wat to say so i will end off with saying,

i love all my m8s
AMBER,JESSY,ZOE,FLO,TOM,JAMES,PERRY,WILLIAM,DANNY V AND MY LITTLE SKL BRO ROBIN

skl was kl today cept for the little fact of p.e , i really h8 it wen the teachers pick ppl sitting next to your who rnt doing nothing aswell as u and u dont get picked to go out and enjoy the sports cept sit there doing absolutly nothing argh it gets me sooo mad.
i have sports day 2mos , wat alot of fun thts gonna be also sitting there doing nothing wen u watch alot of ppl prancing around trying to be athelites lol but i wish good luck to all my friends who have qualified easpecially if they r doing all 3 events , yes a big good luck and hug to u cause i am telling u , ur gonna have your work cut out.
again i will mention all of the ppl tht i did in yesterdays lj and hope u all will be satisfied.

AMBER , JESSY , FLO , ZOE , JAMES , PERRY , TOM , DANNY V
and my liitle skl bro ROBBIN hes sooo cool lol
so seya 2mos kids (stil as sad as ever)

haya ppl , its me again the guy who cant spell to save his life but oh well .
today was great , i meen it was only a normal skl day but just doing it was kl , i know last lj entry missed out a few ppl but i will have them down at the bottom (lot of winers).
its great i have been put on the yr 9 design crew for the skls internet page now its wicked .
bobo is pissed cause of it saying she is beter with computers than me wen really the only thing she is better than me at is typing but anyhoo who cares . I AM THE BEST lol.
james was pissed today as usual , dont know why though wat does he have to be pissed at i meeen wats up.
tom was trying to touch me up again today aswell ( i swear he is getting gayer towards me minute by minute ).
got slapped by mimi again as usual , and oh yeh i forgot this in my last lj WELL DONE MIMI HEHE second place thts great.
thanks again to all my m8s for being so great, and here is the new list for all those who i forgot.

AMBER, JESSY , FLORENCE, ZOE , TOM, JAMES, PETCH AND PERRY

SEYA SAME TIME 2MORROW KIDS DONT MISS OUT lol
i am soooo weird hehe

finally i can say stuff on live journal, i only just realized tht u could get your passwrod sent to u if u forget it .(dumbass)but anyway today was great i went to my old skls summer fair.
tru i had to set up all the electrical equipment help put together a stage and put all the decorations up but in a big way it was fun. seeing all these little munchkins run around me reminded me of how small i was , it was great.
i went sk8ing with my friends after but we still stayed round the skl though. it was great got free booze, well shandy but oh well atleast it had some alchohol in it.
it was sad wen i had to go but it was all done in a bit of a rush because THE STUPID WIMBLEDON WEATHER DECIDED TO CHANGE ITS BLOODY MIND AGAIN AND RAIN but oh well wat ya gonna do.my mum wasnt to happy wen i arived absolutly soaked from it but i dont think any mum tht is really tired of doing the washing would really.
i cant wait until skl , ive been like tht for some time now, ever since i made up with every1 easpecially Amber i feel much better , and dont really want to miss another day of skl
i really enjoy walking home with the gang again , and all the weird and wonderful things and conversations we get into .

i am sooooooo glad to have such good friends

Amber, Tom, James ,William, Florence and i am even strting to talk to Perry now its great.
thnx to all of u for being sooo great.

Current Mood: happy